Lonely ghosts and an almost-full moon…


A very sensory, yet very surreal, week. Or mindset.

Things are both ambiguous and very clear. In mental limbo and yet absolutely certain about…well, see the secrets part below.

A inevitability from which there is no escape, and yet, a promise of a new beginning.

It’s a little maddening and frightening, but also soothing and comforting.

I’m frustrated and resigned at the same time. I’m believing in my instincts and dreams and signs but also practical about their impossibility in this dimension.

The moon is blue-bright and has been keeping me awake, but it’s not even full yet.

There’s lots of secrets, which are also revelations.

Some songs from the 90s are (uncharacteristically!?!?) the current soundtrack to my inner world. Out of nowhere I had this urge to listen to them.

I’m both running away and towards something, simultaneously. Distance, and closeness, all at once.

Nothing much seems to have a point right now, including this blog, yet I’m compelled to put words out there, even if they are trivial, unrelated, or don’t make any sense.

Watched a movie tonight titled “I Don’t Feel at Home in this World Anymore”.

Been wanting to give “Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind” a re-watch, and re-read Griffin and Sabine, but hesitated to take that literary/cinematic journey.

“Foolish man. You cannot turn me into a phantom because you are frightened. You do not dismiss a muse at whim.” – Sabine Strohem
Nick Bantock, Griffin and Sabine



Pluviophile, Loving Nature, Science with Heart, Intuition, Respecting Women…and other Sunday Scramble Musings…

Found this on Facebook on Tony Gaskin’s page today re: respecting and encouraging women (https://scontent-b-atl.xx.fbcdn.net/hphotos-xfp1/v/t1.0-9/10557404_823617487650469_4874551535342321428_n.jpg?oh=48eb633238eeaadcd9ad2ea06d50ca47&oe=54D94A78)


On Hate via Maya Angelou:


I don’t really know why, but I had this intense yearning for rain this weekend, so I sent out a mental plea that it rain. It had been too long since it rained, here. And it rained yesterday, and it’s overcast and cool and so lovely out and it looks like more rain is on its way! http://www.urbandictionary.com/define.php?term=pluviophile

Coincidence, of course, but it really brought home on how deeply I feel connected to nature in all its elemental forms. I can’t even bear to see trees cut down, and I hate those toxic, manicured, ecosystem-destroying turf lawns. Give me wild, tangled spaces over them anyday.

I hate regimentation–in suburban landscaping and housing, as well as in people. A perfect example would be the use of creativity-destroying drugs (put out by Big Pharm who’s making millions off of it) that are used to “fix” the ADHD mind. Back when I was teaching, I noticed that one of my students was really out-of-it and lethargic. Her parents had put her on a whole slew of behavior-, mood-, and mind-altering drugs, and she was like a zombie. It was sickening to think that people think it’s okay to drug children in this manner, with drugs that get a free pass from the FDA. Why? Why not adapt the (failing, ineffectual) school system to bright, eager. questioning minds, instead of destroying them with drugs just to make them compliant and malleable to routine and factory-line, dead-end education we are mainlining to kids? It’s a travesty, and the stuff of nightmares.


That led me into a train of thought where I began thinking more about scientific objectivity (I’ve been getting a lot of posts from I Fucking Love Science that have been bashing non-scientific types). While I will never side with evolution-disbelievers/creationists by any means, I’m also not 100% all for complete objectivity/so-called “rational” thinkers. I think building your entire thought pattern based on logical rules can be just as blinding as having no logic or rationale whatsoever. After all, many scientific discoveries happened due to elemental chance (i.e. discovery) that somebody thought to apply scientific principles to (how’s that quote go?–scientific discoveries happen not by “eureka”, but by ‘that’s funny’ “). I don’t hold with the type of scientific objectivity that makes it okay for scientists to flat-out torture and abuse animals by the thousands with their sick and twisted experiments. Or those scientists back in the fifties/sixties who experimented on humans against their will, or even without their knowledge. Keep practicing science, by all means, we need more scientists, especially more women scientists, but don’t check your emotions and your instincts at the door to the laboratory. Practice science with HEART, and utilize the many alternatives there are available out there instead of relying on ineffective, unscientifically variable and inaccurate, and inhumane animal testing.  http://www.peta.org/issues/animals-used-for-experimentation/alternatives-animal-testing/

Union of Concerned Scientists: http://www.ucsusa.org/

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